THE CATS MEOW

FOR WRITERS & READERS EZINE

 

Issue 15, Vol. 06

© February 10, 2006

THE CAT’S MEOW FOR WRITERS & READERS

Ezine:  ISSN:  2237-65

Published by Rosanne Catalano, (a/k/a R.C.Kayla)

Editor-in-Chief and Writer/Author

For Her Official Author Web Sitehttp://www.rosannecatalano.net

Editor and Proofreader:  Nancy Currie (formerly Peckford),

Technical Writer/Author, Web Designer and Assistant,

Nancy’s Web Site (under construction at this time)http://webwriterworx.tripod.com

 

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IN THIS ISSUE:

 

EDITOR-IN-CHIEF’S CORNER

 

EDITOR’S CORNER

 

OFF THE PRESS

Barbara Deming—

“Growing up Barefoot in the South” (New book release)

 

Rose Anna Schoene—

“Absolutely the Last Resort” (New romance book release)

 

Paris Smith—

Shafi Doldi” (Penknife Press book release for new author)

 

COFFEE HOUSE 4 POETS & WRITERS

Heidi L. Metzger (“Dizzy”)—

“Love and War” (poetry)

 

Paula Gordon—

“Scattered Remnants” (poetry)

 

Sandra Hoynacki—

“Country Tales” (a short tale)

 

Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman—

“Childhood (an essay),” “I Am an Alien and Stranger in This World – A Christian (an essay),” and “Spiritual Warfare” (an essay)

 

Tammy Bruton—

“Heartache,” “Free,” and “My Love” (poetry)

 

Leon Basin

“When Tears Fall Down” and “Ponder Onto a World” (poetry)

 

Michelle Antoinette Obie—

“I will be Your Soul,” “I am No Longer Gone,” “I Will Not Cry,” and “If I Had Wings” (poetry)

 

Hal Sirowitz—

“Frustrated Fingers,” “House Plans,” and “The Far Side Getting Further” (loose-form haiku)

 

Sandra Hoynacki—

“Faded Friendship” (a short story)

 

Leya Irish Bard—

“Amazon Tale – Janye’s Awakening” (a slice of her novel)

 

FEATURE ARTICLE

Dr. Tony Fiore—

“How to Deal With Difficult People: Part 3 – The Passive/Aggressive

 

ARTICLES

Pamela Stewart

“Do You Define Yourself by Your Credit Score?”

 

Kristie Tamsevicius—

“Setting Up Your Dream Home Office Space”

 

Margie Warrell

“What is the Quality of Your Excuses?”

 

Suzanne Falter-Barns—

“Are You a ‘Yes-Dog’?”

 

Charlie Cook

“The Best Kept Web Site Marketing Secret”

 

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EDITOR-IN-CHIEF’S CORNER:

Rosanne Catalano – www.rosannecatalano.net

 

Welcome to all our new subscribers! We’re so glad you joined us. Please stay tuned for the redesigning of my author web site and home of The Cat’s Meow for Writers & Readers’ ezine, which Nancy my wonderful editor and assistant, is working on for the new year. As soon as it is completed, I will let you all know.

 

Confession time, my friends. I made a blunder! Upon re-reading some back issues of this ezine, realized that I repeated myself about heart-healthy meals in the December (our anniversary issue) and January issues. For that friends, I am truly sorry! Guess the deaths of my dad and stepdad, and subsequent heart attack of my hubby, affected me more than I had realized. The grieving process takes a very long time, and we should never listen to those who say to “just get over it already.”  No one can just get over the death of loved ones; especially if you loved them as dearly as I loved my dad and stepdad. They were both wonderful, loving men in their own ways. You must go through all the stages of grief because if you don’t, it will come back to haunt you, and the death of your loved one(s) will be as fresh in your mind as the day they passed on.  Another reason I made that blunder is, since my husband’s heart attack, we have begun to incorporate a healthier lifestyle, but it can drive you crazy during the learning process!  We are both going through this very positive change, but a change that is not easy. Old habits don’t change overnight, and it takes time and lots of it to make that change!  It’s also driving me crazy having to read all the food labels in the supermarket when I shop (lol) so please have patience with me during this transition to a healthier way of eating.

 

On another note, I forgot to thank all my dear readers and subscribers for your condolences on the passing of my beloved father and stepfather.  Your outpouring of love, comfort and prayers comforted me and my family tremendously during this very sorrowful time.

 

Oh my, almost forgot two other things.  I do hope our subscribers are enjoying the talking Ebook, “10 Success Habits to Swell Your Bank Account In 2006,” written by Michael Green and Peter Twist, given to you as a Christmas gift from me to you in December … if you haven’t already downloaded it, what are you waiting for?  It’s a wonderful talking Ebook written by two very successful entrepreneurs, in which they give step-by-step advice on habits that they themselves have put into practice to achieve their success. It can still be downloaded at: http://www.howtocorp.com/success-habits-2006/princess24, believe me you won’t be sorry you have read their all-new talking Ebook.  The Ebook is FREE so you have nothing to lose, but everything to gain by downloading it!  Readers who aren’t subscribers can also read this talking Ebook for FREE by going to the link above.

 

Would you also like to know how to live a more positive life in the new year for you and your family? Well then, Dr. Barbara Becker Holstein, a positive psychologist and happiness coach, tells my dear readers how to be more positive in everything you do, and how to set goals to live a more positive life; plus she has great inspirational quotes, merchandise and books she has written that can be ordered right on her web site, The Enchanted Self.com.  Her books and merchandise focus on you and everyone in your life, and can be bought at: http://www.enchantedself.com/cgi-bin/affiliates/aff.cgi?a=8. Her newest book, “Delight,” focuses on learning to love and enjoy yourself through life’s special moments, and is filled with emotional and delightful reminiscences that will charm you!  To read more about her book, or to order Dr. Holstein’s beautifully, inspirational merchandise and other books, please click here. You won’t be sorry once you go to her web site; it comes highly recommended for anyone who wants to live a better life.  And it will leave you feeling as if you visited a wonderland of positivity!

 

Now onward dear readers, to all my wonderful contributing authors, poets and writers…please do enjoy their poems, stories (long & short), haikus’ (a new form of flash fiction), and all the helpful informative articles our contributing writers have written especially for you!  Believe it or not, while publishing our ezine, I, too, have learned a lot; just by reading through every submission sent. So I am hoping you will love this issue as much as I enjoyed reading and publishing it. Have a great February, and I’ll see you all in March!

 

Copyright © February 10, 2006 by Rosanne Catalano

 

This Issue Is Dedicated To:

Carman Peter Catalano (my dad) and Harold Clinton Welch (my stepdad), who are having their First Birthdays in Heaven this year…

 

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EDITOR’S CORNER:

Nancy Currie (formerly Peckford) – webwriterworx.tripod.com (under construction)

 

I have written an article about author/editor relationships that is intended to produce feedback from our readers but due to technical difficulties I will not be posting the article in this month’s ezine.

 

Look for the article in the March 2006 issue of The Cat’s Meow for Writers and Readers.

 

Copyright © 2006 February 10, 2006 by Nancy Currie (formerly Peckford)

 

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OFF THE PRESS

Author Barbara Deming’s latest book, “Growing up Barefoot in the South (Essays by a Southern Writer)” has been released!

She says about her book, “Those of you who know me well, understand that this is a book dear to my heart. I always say that I am a Southerner first and an American second--those Southern roots go way, way back and are very deep despite the fact that I now live in California--well, at least it's Southern California. This book will carry you back to a time and place when life was simple, to small towns where the only rule of law was that everyone knew what you were doing--just the place for a tomboy who loved to get into mischief as well as climb mulberry trees to write.  Take a trip back to those "good old days" where love for family, country and church were the values learned.”

The book is available at:  http://www.amazon.com or http://www.barnesandnoble.com or an autographed copy from the author at tejasbabs@aol.com.

Barbara Deming, author (The Quilt Maker 2003).

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 “Absolutely the Last Resort” by Rose Anna Schoene  is a novel of romance and suspense, set in the Catskill Mountains of New York, by one of America’s talented new writers who does double-duty as a medical secretary for an M.D. and is also helping her husband battle cancer right now. Her book publisher, Seaburn Press says there is one book left in print but more copies can be ordered at www.amazon.com or you can use the direct link at:  Amazon.com: Absolutely the Last Resort: Books. Seaburn Press, ISBN: 1592320600.

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Penknife Press introduces another new author: Paris Smith, who has written an international thriller entitled “Shafi Doldi,” that will have you turning pages late into the night.   The ISBN is 1-59997-147-x.    It is distributed by Baker & Taylor and Ingram, and is available at your local bookstore and online. Visit their website at: http://www.penknifepress.com

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COFFEE HOUSE 4 POETS & WRITERS™

 

(Highlighting Artistic Talent Every Month!)

 

“LOVE AND WAR”

(a poem)

 

Written by Heidi L. Metzger (“Dizzy”)

Copyright © May 31, 2005 by Heidi L. Metzger

 

Life’s not fair when it comes

To love and war…

One minute things go your way,

the next thing you know they are at your throat;

Trying to kill you!

 

It seems that if you are happy,

everyone has to ruin it for you

and they want to make sure you can’t be

nor stay happy.

 

So when it comes to love and war,

Love the people you wanna be with

and fight the one’s off who hurt

and jeopardize your happiness.

 

All in the name of Love and war…

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Heidi L. Metzger (a/k/a “Dizzy”), a mother of two beautiful sons, can be reached at dizzi6794@yahoo.com. Stay tuned for more of Heidi (“Dizzy”) Metzger’s emotional poetry to come…

 

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“SCATTERED REMNANTS”

(a poem)

 

Written by Paula Gordon

Copyright © 2006 by Paula Gordon

 

You never said forever

yet you seep in so slowly,

Pores not having time to open

before the sweat of you is gone.

 

I savor the glisten that

you leave upon me,

Moonlight casting sparkles

across still drenched skin.

 

I open up to you like a

blooming rose and you

pick each petal apart

So languidly, until I am

nothing but the scattered

remnants of having worn you.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Paula Gordon, is a 43-year-old mother of one beautiful son. She has been deaf/mute since birth. When Paula writes, she translates sound into colors, smells, and touch. It enables people to look at the world in a different way. She and her son have their own special way of communicating besides sign language. She says: “I just try to convey what everyone else takes for granted.” She loves to write in strict poetry forms, and is a Poetry Instructor on another web site. She can be reached at: pdg2850@henderson.net.

 

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“Country Tales”

(a short tale)

 

Written by Sandra Hoynacki

Copyright © 2005 by Sandra Hoynacki

 

Down the long grey slab we wind our way, as yellow crayon marks silently tell us what to do.  We are spellbound by nature and its beauty. 

 

The farm animals seem to be contemplating their next meal while we dwell on our rambling dreams.  Tinker toy cabins stand in the open spaces shadowed with giant pecan trees that shed their little round gifts for Grandma’s pie.  Yellow flowers stand waving on the other side of the fish pond as we pass, blowing fragrant messages to the deserted plot of ground lined with marble statues of used-to-be dreamers, now sleeping peacefully on the dreams of tomorrow. 

 

Tangled webs of moss blanket the trees along the edge of the blue lake as the powder-white ducks glide gently toward the unknown.  The tractor pauses in the glistening wheat field as the weather-beaten farmer, dressed in his old bib coveralls, waves and smiles... 

We drive on as stick people in the drawing of the smallest hands, holding to our little edge of the chattering world, busy in our own bubble as the yellow lines lead us to nature’s hidden secret.  

 

Wind swept messages are sending secret codes to trees with their bright golden covers as they appear to be conversing back and forth. The asphalt world of giant echoes left behind.  We continue on as the hum of our dreams sing us a melody…

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Sandra Hoynacki, lives in “the hurricane state” with her second husband, who, along with her four (4) grown children and two (2) grandchildren, is her very life! She is a retired nurse, who retired from the nursing profession to take care of her elderly mother who was diagnosed with alzheimer’s disease. But she still finds the time to write, because as she said: “I love writing, and hope to write for many years to come!”  This very busy author also attended The Institute of Children’s Literature at-night. To read more of Sandra’s poetry, please visit her author web site at: http://www.poetrypoem.com/poetic2050; she can be reached via email at sandylh@cox.net.

 

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 “CHILDHOOD”

(an essay)

 

Written by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

Copyright © 2005 by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

 

Today I wonder how I ever survived childhood, and grew up to be an ordained pastor, published writer and photographer. Actually, I know how this happened – I asked Jesus into my heart and had Godly parents and grandparents. You see as a child I would come home from school and watch a show called: “Dark Shadows”. I knew the difference between reality and fantasy. More important I knew the difference between right and wrong.

 

Now, for those of you who are too young to remember that show – it had all kinds of strange characters like a witch, a vampire, werewolf and many other strange characters. But, these characters were fantasy so they had no lasting effect on me. I still cherish the memories of getting home from school – grabbing a snack (yes I was a junk food junkie!) of a soft drink and a ding dong and settling back in my favorite chair and enjoying the show.

 

Today Dark Shadows has been replaced with Harry Potter and Goose Bumps. So, why do I have a problem with these books or shows? Personally I don’t have a problem because I know the difference between reality and fantasy and right from wrong. But, are the children in this generation being taught right from wrong and the difference between reality and fantasy? In most cases I would say yes – but for those who do not there is a danger reality will mix with fantasy.

 

Many years ago, I was a substitute teacher’s aide and I was in a special ed classroom for that day. I was to help out whenever needed. This teacher was reading from Goose Bumps and was not teaching it as fantasy. She was emphasizing how to cast spells, ect.  She knew without me saying a word – I disapproved of it because she asked me to leave the room if her teaching offended me. So, I went to the main office and asked to be released from duty. They told me I could not leave the school grounds and to go to the lounge or just walk around until the school day ended.

 

I tried to do that – but my sense of right and wrong wouldn’t let me get paid for nothing and I was bored. So, they sent me to the library. They asked me to unpack cases of Goose Bump books.  Finally, 3:00 came and I could go home. I prayed about the situation and the next morning I called the superintendent of schools. I explained what happened and asked if she would check into the situation I had encountered.  She agreed to read a few Goose Bump books and to call me back with her decision. A few days later she called back and told me that she had found some things that were inappropriate in some books. So, they were going to read and review the books.

 

Every parent must make a decision about books or shows they will allow their children to watch or read.  But, parents must give children a set of values so they will be able to make the right choices. In today’s society children are growing up too fast and they need to be allowed to have a childhood that has fantasy and imagination in it. But they also need to be taught the difference between fantasy and reality!

 

Parents need to remember the lessons learned in childhood are carried into adulthood. This is my personal view on things:  if Christians (or People) would focus on spreading the good news of Jesus instead of condemning women pastors, ministries, and other Christians and stop spending so much time degrading books, ect., the world could be drawn to Jesus.  It would be a better place!  Satan doesn’t have to do a whole lot to cause confusion because Christians are doing it themselves when they talk about other ministries, ect.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman is the ordained pastor and founder of “Ring of Fire Evangelistic Ministry” in Olney, IL. She is the founder and manager of “Blue Jeans for Jesus” Thrift Store. You may visit the online thrift store at http://www.blujay.com/bluejeansforjesusthriftstore.

Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman is also a published author and her latest book is, “The Adventures of Faith, Hope and Love.” Her book may be enjoyed by children of all ages. Rev. Kimberly has also won awards for previous photography she has done. If you would like more information about Rev. Kimberly’s writing, please go to: http://www.writesight.com/writers/revkimberly. She can also be reached via email at revkimberly@aol.com.

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“I AM AN ALIEN AND STRANGER IN THIS WORLD – A CHRISTIAN”

(an essay)

 

Written by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

Copyright © 2005 by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

As long as I can remember, I have been a stranger in this world. Even as a child, I saw things from a different perspective. I saw them through the spiritual eyes that God had blessed me with. I saw things from a spiritual perspective.

 

One example of how I am a stranger comes from my childhood memories. I grew up in a time when the women wore dresses and there were very few exceptions to that rule. I attended a local church and one day the pastor’s wife had a talk with mom. She told her to let me wear jeans to services. I liked wearing dresses and for a period of time, I felt uncomfortable but soon adjusted to the new style. I suppose the pastor’s wife felt I needed to fit in with the other children.  But I never really fit in – I was always different than everyone else.

 

As a child, I would play school and make crosses out of play dough.  I would invite the neighborhood children to church. I would even ask mom to give my clothes that I had outgrown to a neighbor child down the street.

 

The Lord and I had a close relationship in my childhood prayers. I would lock myself in the bathroom and kneel down to pray. I knew God had a plan for me and I never did enjoy things that did not glorify God.

 

Today, I am really an alien and stranger in this world because I am an ordained pastor and I am a woman.  The Lord called me and I am not ashamed and I will stand firm for the Lord and continue in His service until I draw my last breath. I will not compromise to fit in or to receive donations. I am in the Lord’s army and I will follow His orders. I preach the truth and call sin: “Sin”.  Someday, everyone will stand before the judgment seat of Christ, and will give account for their lives. Pastors and Christians need to wake up and hear the battle cry to serve the Lord and spread the good news of Jesus.

 

I Peter 2:11-12 “Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world to abstain from sinful desires, which will wage war against your soul. Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day He visits”.

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“SPIRITUAL WARFARE”

(an essay)

 

Written by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

Copyright © 2005 by Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman

 

The bible teaches that the war is not against flesh and blood but against the ruler of the air as shown in: Ephesians 2:1-2 “As for you. You were dead in your transgressions and sins, in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient”. Satan can come in many forms and is a great deceiver. I want to share an encounter I had with a high priest of Satan’s church.

Many years ago, I worked as a houseparent for a non-profit children’s home. I believe the Lord sent me there for many reasons. The job was rewarding because I was able to share Jesus with the children in my care, but it was also confining. I would work 30 days and then have 4 days off. So, you had to make friends with parents (for whatever reason, the children were at this facility instead of living with them) or with other houseparents.

 

I was from a small town and at that point basically trusted everyone. So, there was a parent of a child that let houseparents use his home to get off campus for a few hours. I went there a few times, but things just didn’t seem right.

 

He asked me out on a date and told me he was a pastor. Something still didn’t ring true, so I kept my distance. It was extremely scary because I would go to a shopping center and turn around and he was there.

 

Finally one day, he explained he was a high priest of Satan’s church. Of course, after I recovered from the shock, I stopped all communication with him and, of course, prayed for him. I don’t know what ever happened to him, but I do know this – no one would have known by looking that he was a high priest of Satan. He was a well-dressed man, and was very kind and compassionate.

 

People must realize Satan is the deceiver. God’s angels were protecting me! People from my hometown were holding me up in prayer. God guided my steps and protected me. This world is a difficult place to live in at this point in time. There is no standard of right and wrong and no set values. So that is why we must be as wise as a serpent and harmless as a dove. Read your bible daily, pray without ceasing and allow the Lord to guide your steps!

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman is the ordained pastor and founder of “Ring of Fire Evangelistic Ministry” in Olney, IL. She is the founder and manager of “Blue Jeans for Jesus” Thrift Store. You may visit the online thrift store at http://www.blujay.com/bluejeansforjesusthriftstore.

Rev. Kimberly R. Dreiman is also a published author and her latest book is, “The Adventures of Faith, Hope and Love.” Her book may be enjoyed by children of all ages. Rev. Kimberly has also won awards for previous photography she has done. If you would like more information about Rev. Kimberly’s writing, please go to: http://www.writesight.com/writers/revkimberly. She can also be reached via email at revkimberly@aol.com.

 

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“HEARTACHE”

(a poem)

 

Written by Tammy Bruton

Copyright © 2006 by Tammy Bruton

 

The day has come to see what we have made,

A boy or a girl – either will be okay.

Entered the Doctor’s Office, our whole family inside,

To see the child that likes to hide.

 

We find out there is no heart beat,

No movement of arms or feet,

My own heart wanting to cease,

My baby I wanted so bad, deceased.

 

I gave birth the natural way.

A little boy, that God has taken away.

The only thing keeping me sane;

Thinking that he is in a better place,

And I will see him again, Someday.

 

Mournfully, I left the hospital without my son,

With comfort from my loved ones.

Though my heartache still remains,

The love of my husband and children eases the pain,

Of losing my beloved Tyler.

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“FREE”

(a poem)

 

Written by Tammy Bruton

Copyright © 2006 by Tammy Bruton

 

I am sitting on my porch,

Rocking in my swing.

I am looking at the sky,

And in my line of vision,

A bird swoops in.

 

It seems like he is dancing,

As he sways and turns.

He opens his wings wider,

Looks like more air that he yearns.

He flies higher and higher,

Until he’s out of my sight.

Then he comes down fast,

A master of his own flight.

 

It must be nice having no boundaries,

The wind your only need.

Nothing to get in your way,

As you flutter your wings for more speed.

 

I long to be that bird,

Up there wild and free.

No more doors slammed in my face,

Just let me – be Me.

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“LITTLE VOICE”

(a poem)

 

Written by Tammy Bruton

Copyright © 2006 by Tammy Bruton

 

A little voice screams in my head,

Wake up child or you’ll soon be dead.

I struggle to become awake,

Wondering why my life is at stake.

 

Awake, I now realize,

my arms and feet, both are tied.

Panic stricken through every cell,

I can’t scream. I can’t yell.

 

A little voice screams in my head,

Calm down child or you’ll soon be dead.

I realize it’s hard to breathe,

I try to sit up. I try to leave – but I cannot even do that.

I hit my head, something hard and flat.

I feel around, feel nothing but wood.

Buried alive.  I finally understood.

 

A little voice screams in my head,

It’s alright child you’ll get out.

Wondering how, I wiggle the ropes,

untie myself but have little hope.

 

I punch at the wood above my heart

and pray to God to help with this part.

I pray, I pray, I punch, I pray.

Finally the wood gives way.

 

A little voice screams in my head,

Move fast as dirt comes down so red.

I struggle and dig with my hands and feet,

as I sob and bitterly weep.

 

It seems like I will never get there,

then my fingertips brush cold air.

I push myself on top of the earth,

It feels like it’s my own rebirth.

 

A little voice softly speaks in my head,

You had faith in me, for you I have bled.

You listened to me in your most trying time,

a precious woman, so divine.

 

A little confused, all dirty and bruised,

I’ve been through hell, yet, I feel so well!

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“MY LOVE”

(a poem)

 

Written by Tammy Bruton

Copyright © 2006 by Tammy Bruton

 

Standing at the water’s shore,

watching the waves while they are dancing,

They separate, then mingle as one,

as if they are romancing.

 

Watching this reminds me of you,

how you gave me your heart and soul.

Combined to make one unit of strength,

accepted, we make each other whole.

 

The waves make me unsteady on my feet,

my mind, oh how they do possess.

I sit down to watch them more,

dancing and crashing with finesse.

 

Engulfing me with all that you are,

your name engraved into my heart.

Soothing my entire soul,

not always together, but never apart.

 

Now the sun goes down,

and the waves begin to subside

Merged together, forever,

our love entwined, survives.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Tammy Bruton, is originally from Aylesbury, England. Her mother and biological father divorced when she was 2 years old, a few years later her mother remarried a military man. They moved around England to different bases, until the last one took them to Lakenheath Air Force Base, where her stepfather then got shipped to Plattsburgh, New York.  It was in New York, that she began to write poetry at school; she had joined the P.A.L. group to be a teen counselor at the ripe age of 13, and found that writing cheerful poems to the ones who came to her for help, helped them out a lot.  She enjoyed seeing a smile on the faces of the children she helped. With her parents she moved again – to Fort Worth, Texas, and graduated from high school in 1993. Though Tammy has been married, divorced and remarried with six (6) wonderful children, she continues to write her poetry because she feels her life is complete and full of excitement now. She has settled down in Fort Worth, Texas with her current husband (whom she married in 2004) and six children, and can be reached via email at tamanddavbruton@sbcglobal.net.

 

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“WHEN TEARS FALL DOWN”

(a poem)

 

Written by Leon Basin

Copyright © 2005 by Leon Basin

 

When tears fall down

onto the concrete I won’t cry

nor shed another darn tear because

 

When I envision, I glisten

to see you standing there alone?

Not alone but with a clown,

who looks exactly like you did before yesterday

 

It’s an enormous battle that keeps battling inside my mind

I am not in control, but I would like to be

 

I am scared to see things,

I am scared of falling off into a deadly hole

I hope for someone’s hand to reach for me,

to take me out, to take me in.

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“PONDER ONTO A WORLD”

(a poem)

 

Written by Leon Basin

Copyright © 2005 by Leon Basin

 

Ponder onto a world,

which is unknown to a mysterious magical being

who suffers from longitude of believing

 

I am expressing my thoughts,

that combine cynical connection

Fire burning through my veins

like pure ecstasy of fire

Burning for my desire

 

I’m in need of something new,

to comprise my energy upon

Wanting to touch her sweet strawberry hair

That makes me smile without despair.

 

Injecting the core with purity of gratification of my pen

Circular rotation of pronunciation of intoxicated red rose

 

It gets spread out through the hallway like

Sweet Mozart gentle tune

Humming the magical song inside my mind

I cannot believe I can fly

Up in the sky

Hoping to touch upon a soul

That connects into my brain like a voluptuous pain.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Leon Basin, attends De Anza College and is majoring in four (4) things:  English, Technical Writing, Massage Therapy and Personal Training. He started writing when he was in the 10th grade, due to his teacher inspiring him to continue on. Writing for him has become like breathing air, without it he is not able to get up and face the day. He has said he tries to improve everything he can in himself and his writing in order to achieve total success. Do check out Leon Basin’s web sites at: http://www.xanga.com/misterethoughts and http://www.myspace.com/micsterethoughts.

 

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“I WILL BE YOUR SOUL”

(a poem)

 

Written by Michelle Antoinette Obie

Copyright © 2005 by Michelle Antoinette Obie

 

So little time, so much pain

Just give me your heart and let me go

I will be your soul that brought me

to life as we dance a sweet dance,

Sing a sweet song, as we move to the groove

Of our pain.

 

So little time, so much pain

Just give me your heart and let me go

Such mixed emotions, love is for real

I will be your soul that keeps us so close

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“I AM NO LONGER GONE”

(a poem)

 

Written by Michelle Antoinette Obie

Copyright © 2005 by Michelle Antoinette Obie

 

I am no longer gone as for my pain

I can’t hide the troubled thoughts

I have grown too old to fall in love,

To wise to love, I’m no longer afraid

To cry these sorrow sounds, these vanishing

Tears I once heard.

I am a woman with pride to be

Big bone, pride to be who I am.

 

I am no longer gone as for my pain

I can’t hide these tears no more,

I can’t drown my heart into fear anymore,

Fear itself is unexplainable,

The color of my skin has gone to black,

Too soft, too bright

I am no longer gone as for my pain,

I can not no longer hide,

These troubled thoughts

Of mine.

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“I WILL NOT CRY”

(a poem)

 

Written by Michelle Antoinette Obie

Copyright © 2005 by Michelle Antoinette Obie

 

I will not cry under the blue moon

Unless my heart tells me so

My love won’t last now

Unless I am free.

 

I will not cry when God tells us

It’s time to go

God once told me I would not cry

Until I am set free.

Because I know I once lived

My life the way he wanted me to be

But I will not cry unless my soul tells me so.

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“IF I HAD WINGS”

(a poem)

 

Written by Michelle Antoinette Obie

Copyright © 2005 by Michelle Antoinette Obie

 

If I had wings my sorrow would be over,

I wouldn’t have to cry these lonely tears of mine.

Why do I feel like crying when the world is against me?

If I run, the pain won’t go away and if I stay it will haunt me today.

If I had wings my sorrow would be over, the pain would go away,

 

If I had wings I would soar through the sky to mark my name

in the world for all to see.

I’m not a little girl anymore you see,

I came a long way to be free.

But my sorrow still haunts me

I never knew what love was like,

Because my heart wants to be free.

 

If I had wings, my sorrow would be over

I wouldn’t have to cry these lonely tears of mine.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Michelle Antoinette Obie, says that writing has always been a huge part of her life in one way or another. Growing up wasn’t always easy for her but she has learned that life has it’s ups and downs, and that when you keep the Lord first the Lord will always bring you a blessing in disguise…so if you are thinking about ‘giving up’ on your dreams, don’t!  There is always someone out there who will encourage your dream(s).  If you would like more information about the author or to read more of her poems, please go to Michelle’s new web site at http://home.bellsouth.net/p/PWP-writingforlove.  If you would also like to send correspondence to Michelle, she can be reached at michelleobie@bellsouth.net.

 

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“FRUSTRATED FINGERS”

(loose-form haiku)

 

Written by Hal Sirowitz

Copyright © 2005 by Hal Sirowitz

 

Holding hands, our fingers

becoming excited.

Then she ruined it by removing her thumb.

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“HOUSE PLANS”

(loose-form haiku)

 

Written by Hal Sirowitz

Copyright © 2005 by Hal Sirowitz

 

If a relationship is

like a house, then we never

Got out of the cellar.

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“THE FAR SIDE GETTING FURTHER”

(loose-form haiku)

 

Written by Hal Sirowitz

Copyright © 2005 by Hal Sirowitz

 

We were on the far side of

happiness. But if it got any further away,

We could only get there by map.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Hal Sirowitz, is a 56-year old, former Poet Laureate of Queens, New York; a title he held for three years (January 2000 – December 2003)! To correspond with Hal Sirowitz, he can be reached via email at: minter.krotzer@verizon.net.

 

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“FADED FRIENDSHIP”

(a short story)

 

Written by Sandra Hoynacki

Copyright © 2005 by Sandra Hoynacki

 

The wind had been blowing hard that day.  I was sure I wouldn’t be able to finish the chores before the rain started. With mom and dad working in town, I was alone except for a day or two a week when Mr. John, our farm help, would come.

 

I had been jittery lately with that single faded rose coming in the mail. Every day it came wrapped neatly in a brown bag with no name or hint as to who had sent it. As the clouds rolled in, fear gripped my bones, and I looked up to see the mail wagon rattling down the skinny trail that led to our ranch. Muttering aloud to myself, I wondered, “Why did he stop today?”

 

Feeding the last horse, I looked up in time to see the mail carrier heading to our box. He placed a package inside, waved, and turned to leave as the thunder sounded like giant hammers beating from all directions. I stood there and looked at the bright yellow mailbox just a few paces down the road and thought, “No rose today.”  With feet like lead, I trudged down the rocky road to get the mail.

 

Looking inside, I saw the package waiting like a snake to strike out. My breath smothered me, and I began to tremble. Today was different. The paper was tied in black string instead of the brown knotted rope. Reaching inside, I felt something hard. Easing the package out, I slowly untied the string and saw the black box. I stood there feeling that at any moment I would crumble into a pile of dirt on the wet ground. Fearfully lifting the lid, I saw a note folded in small squares.  I could see the writing in blood red ink. I unfolded the paper. The words shouted out at me, “I will see you one day.”  I dropped the note and reached inside the brown rolled-up bag, pulling out the faded rose. Someone had cut the thorns off and carefully wrapped them in tape before putting them under the rose. Feeling sick, I slumped to the ground.

 

The rain had started making its way down the front of my face as cold drops pounded me like little rocks. I sat staring at the thorns, the rose, and the box. The wind began to whisper, calling the blanket of darkness to close in overhead leaving the daylight flickering like a candle, a patch of light quickly gone.

I felt like a popsicle on a hot summer day as the rain continued to roll down every inch of my bony frame. Even the freckles on my nose would surely slide off. I jumped up and ran toward the house as darkness swallowed me up. Suddenly the headlights of a car burst through the night, coming from behind me.

 

“Jenny, what are you doing out here?”  I recognized Dad’s voice. I turned to see both dad and mom.

 

“I was getting the mail and it…” I stammered.

 

“You’re soaking wet,” Mom said.

 

“Mom, it came again, the rose, and now there is a black box and thorns and…”

 

“Jenny, get inside now!”

 

The warmth of the kitchen and the hot cup of cocoa hugged close to my chest were comforting.

 

“Dad, can we go to the post office tomorrow and do something?” I asked.

 

“Alright Jenny, now settle down and go to bed. After breakfast tomorrow we’ll go.”

 

At the post office the next day, Dad explained to the postmaster what had been happening and gave him the evidence. The postmaster looked puzzled then quickly opened the desk drawer and pulled out a list. With the scrawl of the pen, we had an address.

 

The solution to my rose puzzle was minutes away now. Soon dad pulled up to a cobblestone cottage with a pearly-white picket fence. I suddenly felt like throwing up, but gulped down a breath of air instead. Rose bushes greeted us around the well-kept yard.

“Dad, this is not it,” I said, recognizing the house.

 

“Jenny, calm down.”

 

At the side of the porch I saw a wheelchair ramp.

 

“Dad, this is all wrong,” I said, my voice trembling. “Let’s just go, I don’t want to be here.”

 

“No, Jenny, we will face this now.”

 

We walked to the front door and rang the bell, it softly began to play, “Somewhere Over the Rainbow.”  The door opened, and there she sat in a wheelchair, small and fragile but beautiful. Since first grade we had been best friends.

 

“Jenny, I knew you would come.”

“Amy, I—.”  Suddenly it all came lashing out at me, tormenting me all over again. I had dared her to make that dangerous jump. “Oh, Amy, I’m so sorry.”

 

“Jenny, I know you have blamed yourself for the accident all these years, and I blamed you, too, but now it’s over.”  Tears streamed down our faces as we stared at one another. Dad stood silently behind me. I knelt by her chair and looked up at her Barbie-doll face.

“Amy, I have thought of you every day and not once since the accident have I rode Star again. I wish it had been me.”

 

“Jenny, my anger is gone. And my black box world is gone, too, along with the thorns of pain I have felt.” Like a broken fountain, we both cried and cried, knowing the faded roses were in the past as well as our faded friendship was.

 

“Dad, will you pick me up later?” I yelled as I pushed Amy down the wheelchair ramp and into the sparkling new day. Smelling the fragrance of the beautiful roses, we both began to sing “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” as we made our way to the soda fountain for our favorite sundae.

 

Our brush with death stood silent between us as I pushed her quietly in her chair. Passing a row of beautiful flowers, I picked her a yellow rose. She smiled and gently smelled it… A yellow rose stood for friendship.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Sandra Hoynacki, lives in “the hurricane state” with her second husband, who, along with her four (4) grown children and two (2) grandchildren, is her very life! She is a retired nurse, who retired from the nursing profession to take care of her elderly mother, diagnosed with Alzheimer’s Disease. But still finds the time to write, because as she herself has said: “I love writing, and hope to write for many years to come!”  This very busy, new published writer also attended The Institute of Children’s Literature at night. To read more of Sandra’s poetry, please visit her web site at: http://www.poetrypoem.com/poetic2050; or she can be reached via email at sandylh@cox.net.

 

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“AMAZON TALE – JANYE’S AWAKENING”

(a short story, a modified slice from the author’s novel)

 

Written by Leya Irish Bard

Copyright © 2005 by Leya Irish Bard

 

She heard their voices…soft female tones close by. Pain, weakness and fear kept her eyes closed. One woman had just entered – telling the other she would stay.

 

Curiosity, and the scrape of a wooden stool, forced Janye to open her eyes. Blinking, Janye focused on a tall woman standing beside her. Her long red hair tied behind her, the Amazon known as Conori smiled softly. Janye scanned the other woman, much older, and perhaps a Healer by trade. Her eyes drifted again to Conori as she spoke. 

 

“Hello, little one. You are safe now. No one will hurt you again.” 

 

Janye tried to reply but pain spasms kept her quiet. She managed to nod and both women smiled. The Healer, a woman named Doris, urged her to sleep. She needed no further encouragement as her eyes closed…pain pulsing with her heartbeat. So tired … she no longer heard their words but sleep did not claim her. Her last memory, being beaten by Slave Traders, rolled through her mind. She remembered they wanted something … she’d refused. At last, sleep pulled her away to blissful darkness.

 

Hours later Janye awakened. She was on a soft bed lined with fur. A blanket folded around her. She was inside a wooden hut – dimly lit by faded sunlight through three windows. Doris entered and Conori rose from nearby. She’d been sleeping on the floor.

 

Watching both women, Janye remained silent. Instinctively she trusted them. I must have escaped somehow, or they found me. Conori sat beside her. Again her smile…reassuring and warm.

 

“My name is Conori. This is Doris. You are being cared for by Forrest Tribe Amazons. Last night we liberated you from the Slave Traders. They have been put to death.”

 

Janye understood each word. Mesmerized, she stared into Conori’s eyes. Amazon. She is an Amazon Warrior? She’d heard of them in hushed tones of awe. Fierce warriors known for killing men and robbing villages. But this woman didn’t fit that image. Beautiful and regal, she wore a flowing red gown that matched her hair.

 

Doris smiled brightly. “Her name is Janye. Avinia told me.” Janye remembered Avinia. They had both been taken from the same village. She’d befriended her and helped the other slaves when she could. Seven women had been herded as cattle for slaughter. The highest bidder in Athens would have his choice.

 

Closing her eyes, Janye remembered Albus. Her stepfather. He died trying to save her. Too much. I must not think of him.

Conori was handing her a cup. “I have water for you.” Conori watched the young woman carefully take the cup, moving slowly, her blue eyes rarely leaving her. Janye’s face was swollen and bruised. She was lucky to be alive. One so young should not suffer…a mere girl. Perhaps 15 turns? Janye’s small size made it hard to know her age.

 

She was, however, older at 17. Suitors had started to approach Albus, who angrily drove them away. He had told her she was too pretty. He should have chosen an ugly girl. She’d laughed and hugged him close.

 

The oxen farmer had rescued her from an orphanage many turns before, and she loved him dearly. Janye returned the cup. Conori’s voice was warm. “Maybe if you’re lucky we might give you food.” Janye smiled, a small smile but it was there. Doris beamed at her patient. “I will bring you some soup.”

 

Departing, Doris saluted her Queen. Janye noticed the gesture. Conori must be their leader. Tired again, without wanting to, Janye closed her eyes in slumber.

Doris was waiting with food when Janye opened her eyes. She refused to eat…turning her head away. “Child, you must eat.” Doris pleaded, setting the food beside her on a small table. Pursing her lips tightly she gave up and left to see Conori.

 

Doris was upset. She paced the dressing room as her Queen changed into a light leather tunic. Brushing her long red hair, Conori wore it down – a softer look that matched her mood. “She won’t eat, and is still not talking.” Doris complained.

 

Conori watched her Healer continue to pace. “Have you given her potions for the pain?” Conori asked calmly.

 

“Yes… of course” came the terse reply.

 

Conori nodded. “Doris, your potions will turn any one’s stomach. Skip them for now.” Facing her Healer, Conori stopped her pacing by placing both hands on her shoulders. “We will let her rest tonight. You also. You are not to re-enter this hut until morning.” Doris started to protest, but her Queen had a look that meant she’d made her decision.

 

Amazon Elonia, holding something in her hand, requested to meet with her. Handing the Queen a strange flute with several different sized tubes running horizontally she spoke.  “We have been going through the Slave Trader’s wagons for items to sell or barter – Avinia has been helping me. When we found this flute Avinia said it belongs to Janye. I thought you would want it.”

 

“Yes” taking the flute. “This might help her to heal. To trust us. Thank you Elonia.”

 

Looking at the flute, Conori lit a candle. The day was turning into nightfall – it seemed to pass too quickly today. Two knocks at her door brought Diana, the Amazon who organized the tribe activities, carrying her dinner. Accepting the food, she asked Diana to meet with her in the morning. Diana agreed and left her Queen.

 

Holding the candle in one hand, the flute in the other, Conori entered the bedroom. Janye’s reaction to the flute was profound. She struggled to sit up, reaching for it, whispering “That is mine.”  Janye had thought her flute lost… the only thing she treasured in her life.

 

Conori rushed over, immediately placing it in her hands. Janye hugged the flute, tears starting to flow. “Thank you. Thank you.” Albus had given it to her and taught her to play.

 

Conori was almost brought to tears as well, seeing Janye suddenly so emotional. “I am glad I could return it to you, little one. Do you need food or water – can I bring you something?”

 

Janye’s blue eyes seemed to look right through her. “No. This is enough. Thank you.”

 

She wanted so much to talk with Janye, help her in some way, but her heart told her to leave her alone. Moving away, she decided to go to bed. Tomorrow would be a busy day.

 

Extinguishing the candle, Conori took off her clothes and slipped naked into sleeping furs along the wall. Conori could still see Janye’s blue eyes full of tears, clutching the flute. Dreaming of that, Conori fell into a deep sleep.

 

Janye’s dream was anything but peaceful.

 

A scream pierced nightfall, waking Conori and others in the camp. Lighting a candle with flint, Conori found her still locked within her dream. Gently touching Janye’s shoulders with both hands, Conori sought her release. “Janye. Janye. It is a dream. You are safe.”

 

Blonde hair damp with sweat, Janye’s eyes finally did open. Breathing rapidly, she stared right through Conori… her hands gripping Conori’s forearms.

 

“Janye… You are in the Amazon camp. You are safe here.” I am safe here. Closing her eyes, Janye loosened her grip and relaxed. It was a dream. A bad memory.

 

Doris, followed closely by Diana, entered the bedroom. “What has happened?” Both women wore matching nightgowns – concern etching their faces.

 

Conori nodded at both, leaving one hand on Janye’s shoulder. “A bad dream. Nothing more. She is fine now.” Conori stood as she realized more Tribeswomen were coming. “Diana, Doris, please tell the others all is well. I do not need you here.” Bowing, both women left… Doris reluctantly being pulled away.  Janye took Conori’s hand. “Sorry,” her breathing finally returning to normal.

 

Conori sat again by her side. “Little one, you have nothing to be sorry for. All is well.” Janye focused on Conori now, smiling slightly as gentle fingers brushed damp hair from her forehead.

 

“Do you need to talk about it?” Conori asked gently.

 

Body tightening, eyes suddenly wide, “No … No.” Fear gripped Janye … breathing short and painful.

 

Conori took her hand. “It is okay, little one. I mean you no harm.” Relaxing again, Janye knew this. She took Conori’s hand with both her own – holding it tightly to her chest.

 

After a few moments, Conori drew her hand away. “Sleep, little one. A dreamless, safe sleep.” Janye nodded, blue eyes still following Conori as she sought the candle and extinguished it.

 

These dreams tortured Janye for three nights in a row. The third night, Janye sobbed convulsively afterwards, and Conori held her close, rocking her back and forth.

Doris wanted to move her to the Healers Hut. “I can treat her. Give her something for sleep.” Conori knew Doris meant well, but disagreed.

 

“She trusts me the most. She will stay for now.”

 

In the front room, just before dawn, Queen Conori had written a list of tasks to be completed. Filling out the scroll by candlelight, she was stunned when Janye entered. The girl was holding the doorway to stay upright.

 

“Janye, please you shouldn’t be walking,” Conori put her arms around her for support. Janye leaned against her. In a soft reply she asked, “Please, can I sit at the table?”  Conori pulled a chair out – almost knocking it over in haste, and then helped the girl sit down. Frightened, Conori touched Janye’s forehead, fearing she had a fever.

 

Janye saw the concern in her eyes. “I am fine, Conori. I could not lie down any longer. I saw the candlelight and decided to come here.” Still wrapped in a blanket, Janye looked fragile – ready to collapse at any moment. But her spirit was obviously stronger. “Tell me what you are writing about.”

 

Unrolling the scroll, she read her list as though briefing Janye like a regular Amazon receiving orders. Conori paused several times – adding explanation when she knew Janye was unsure what she meant.

 

Janye watched her in wonder. She had never seen any woman like her before. You are amazing. Beautiful. Strong. To serve you would be an honor.

 

Not knowing Janye’s thoughts, Conori said, “Now are you thankful you are not an Amazon?” Janye smiled softly, flinching slightly because it hurt to do so. Asking about her rescue, Conori told her everything. Janye looked away, finally saying, “They wanted me to play my flute, and I refused. That is the last thing I remember, before waking up here. Seeing you.”

 

Both women looked at one another. Lightly touching Janye’s arm, Conori spoke softly. “I have a favor to ask you.” She paused, continued. “If Doris catches you here she will yell at me.”

 

Janye couldn’t help but smile. Conori returned it. “If I prop you up, will you return to your bed?” Janye nodded, already starting to stand. Her strength, however, did fail. She would have fallen if not for Conori pulling her into her arms, and carrying her back to the bed.

“I’ve got you, little one. Back to bed with you.”

 

Sitting her there, Conori grabbed two of her sleeping furs. Rolling them up like pillows, she placed them behind Janye so the girl was comfortably in a sitting position.  Thankfully, she appeared to be just sitting by Janye’s bed when both Doris and Diana entered the room. Conori dropped her head and exhaled in relief. Thank the gods. Just in time.

 

Janye laughed softly, and smiled at both women in greeting.

 

Diana briefed her Queen in the front room as Doris examined her patient. Five of the seven former slaves wanted to remain. But no one had yet to discuss Janye’s situation. Conori knew she wanted Janye to stay, but she must have a family. Someone loves this girl dearly. It would be hard not to.

 

“Diana. We need to ask her.”

           

Knowing the girl was fit enough now to express her desires, Conori and Diana entered the bedroom. Conori gestured to Diana, not wishing her desires to influence the girl.

 

Conori looked out a window as Diana began. “Janye, some of the former slaves have asked to be returned to their villages… to a regular society. Once you are well, we can offer that to you if you desire.”

 

Janye moved as though to stand, drawing protests from Doris to remain in bed. Her movements caused Conori to look away from the window and at Janye. Blue eyes caught her own and held them captive. She didn’t want to leave. She would do anything – anything they asked of her.

 

“I want to stay here Conori. With you.” Janye directed these words at Conori, just as though they were alone.

“Then you will stay Janye, and be welcomed in our Tribe.”  The Queen’s tone left little doubt of anything else. Diana and Doris looked at one another, not exactly sure what had just happened.

 

Six more days passed. Janye insisted on walking, bathing herself, and attending to her own needs. She explored the Amazon camp seeing not just the warriors, but women planting, harvesting, caring for animals, working looms, making food, hunting and fishing. The Tribe had two communal meals each day, which Diana supervised with the help of others. The Community thrived with everyone contributing in some way. By mid-day, Janye would tire.

 

Although she tried to avoid Doris, the Healer would find her, and demand rest until the evening meal. She would awaken when Conori returned to the hut. The Queen stayed active each day, checking boundaries by horseback or joining others in their duties.

 

Janye cherished their time alone. She felt at ease with Conori…less scrutinized. Natural curiosity about the Tribe, their ways and customs, fascinated her. She asked Conori questions, sometimes until late at night. Both women enjoyed these talks – Conori seeing her Amazon life through Janye’s eyes.

 

One evening, Janye seemed more reflective. The girl would look ready to speak, and then stop as though words were lost.

 

Conori finally caught her attention. “You wish to ask me something.” Conori was sitting at her table, curious what Janye had on her mind. “Yes,” replied Janye. She sat across from Conori. “I have seen some Tribeswomen affectionate with one another. Kissing.” She paused slightly, “But there are also children.” She’d seen two girls, perhaps five turns old, playing with a small goat. An Amazon named Kyme watched them indulgently.

Conori smiled. Yes that would need explanation. Now it was Conori’s time to find words. “Amazons will have loving bonds with one another if they desire. Some do want the company of men, or wish children. So they seek their…attentions in local villages. Men are not allowed within our Tribe, though.”

 

Janye wanted to know more. “Do you bond with another now, or in the past, who…” She could not finish her question, suddenly embarrassed to ask. Dropping her eyes, she felt she had said too much.

 

Conori watched her; aware Janye was uncomfortable and suddenly shy. Her reply was factual.

 

“In the past, I have enjoyed the company of women. I have been alone for four turns. I lost a woman I loved when she fell from a horse.” Janye started to apologize, which Conori quickly interrupted. “No Janye, I do not mind your questions. We all have past pain that should be shared. We grow in friendship that way.”

 

Janye had not told her about Albus. The loss was still too raw, too gaping inside to allow healing. Not yet.

 

Both women sat there for some time, each lost in their own thoughts. Conori finally stood, gently placing one hand on Janye’s shoulder. “It grows late. Doris will be very angry if she sees you tired.”  Janye smiled, knowing the Healer did indeed monitor her closely each day.  Both women entered the bedroom. Conori noticed her sleeping furs were now on her bed, with Janye’s moved to the far wall. Janye had switched them. “My Queen, I am well enough to return your bed to you. Thank you for your kindness to me.” Janye blew out the candle before Conori could reply or even argue.

 

Working daily with Doris and Diana, Janye now wore a simple leather dress gathered around her waist with a leather tie. Her hair either braided or tied back lightly from her face. She felt a sense of belonging, unity she had never known before.

 

Diana was finally compelled to move Janye into Doris’s Hut. Conori was, after all, the Queen of their Tribe. “Janye, as our Queen … Conori’s Hut is limited to those…” Diana seemed to fumble her words, something that usually didn’t happen. Janye decided to help her. “It is limited to her lover, or someone else she chooses to sleep with.”

 

Diana flushed brightly. “Yes. Thank you. I knew you would understand. It isn’t proper for our Queen to share her hut.”

 

Janye didn’t question what she was told, knowing she had been blessed by staying with her at all. Conori returned from checking their boundaries to find her Hut now empty. Worried, she was caught by Diana before rushing into the Healers Hut – fearing Janye had suffered a relapse.

“I thought it best my Queen. There has been talk within the Tribe. Janye understands the situation.” Diana had to suppress a chuckle…seeing the scowl on Conori’s face.

 

“Diana. I would have preferred to know beforehand, so Janye would be prepared. Where did you place her?”

 

Diana dipped her head slightly – she expected this. “She is with Doris. She has expressed interest in learning the healing arts.” Angry, Conori walked away. She had no convincing argument to offer.

 

At dinner Conori joined her Tribe at the communal tables. She watched Janye helping Diana and others serve food…clearing dishes as they were emptied and discarded. The young woman juggled several dishes at once, trying not to drop any, as she moved unnoticed by the others.

 

Feeling her gaze, Janye met Conori’s eyes. For just a moment they connected, until Janye dropped her eyes. She was too shy around the others, over 100 tribeswomen, to do more than that.

 

This time had been theirs alone. Conori was quiet and withdrawn. She left after eating little, hoping somehow Janye would follow, yet already knowing she would not.

 

Janye watched her leave – bidding her Tribe good night. Janye felt loneliness so acute she ached inside. Though surrounded by her Tribe she was alone. Shaking her head, she again asked Diana for more tasks. Self-pity was not her nature.

 

Filling a cup with wine, Conori sat at her table. Her lifeless hut offered no solace. Wasn’t she entitled, as Queen, to her own friendships? Why should her Tribe dictate her actions? Yes, she was double Janye’s turns, but she wasn’t sleeping with her. And if they did…

 

Conori closed her eyes tightly. She would not take advantage of her adoration. She could see it in her eyes. That…that was wrong. Draining her cup she refilled it. This night would be long.

 

Conori sought Diana at dawn the next day. She’d made a decision. “You have said before I need an Assistant. Someone to make sure I eat, remember to give me a weapon when I bathe, help take notes by scroll.” She reasoned, “I think Janye would be acceptable.”

 

Diana smiled. My Queen is in love and does not know it. Everyone else does, but not her.

But she did know. She wasn’t sure when it had happened but denying it was a waste of time. Conori could not sleep at all…her inner turmoil wrestling with her conscious. She would not act on her feelings, but having Janye with her as before would be enough.

 

Diana spoke to Janye that day about serving their Queen as a personal assistant. Janye felt her spirit soar with joy. She couldn’t help herself, saying yes before Diana even finished her words.

 

The Tribe then watched Janye move her things back to Conori’s hut. Diana was with her, making sure the sleeping area was divided so both women had privacy. But everyone knew they would not stay that way. Some tribeswomen began placing bets on when they would become lovers, and gossiped over the signs they should look for.

 

Doris was somewhat sad, however, losing her potential Healer in training. Janye had expressed interest in learning the Healing arts, and Doris enjoyed her company. Doris was an older woman, past 50 turns, who frequently was lonely. Janye decided to approach Diana, noting she could easily be assistants to both women.  This was agreed upon.

 

Janye spent her days with Doris, joining Conori by late afternoon. Their comfortable routine was re-established, and yet something was different.

 

Conori kept a distance between them, always busy with tasks and note taking. Janye made sure she had food and wine – lighting a candle when light grew dim. She accepted her role…thankful for any time they could share.

 

Two nights later, Conori was studying maps of their lands by candlelight, planning a potential camp move, when Janye started to play her flute in the other room. The song played had the most beautiful tones she had ever heard. Something about her music reached down into your very soul. Conori abandoned the maps, and found Janye sitting on her sleeping furs playing the flute. She sat beside her, watching her play and listening. 

 

When Janye finished, lowering her flute, Conori asked, “Tell me the story of your music, Songbird.”

 

Janye smiled at her Queen, the woman that now filled her dreams at night. “I was orphaned as a young girl,” she began. “A sickness went through our village known as Erseke. My mother, father, and brother died. I was nine turns old. Villagers took me to an Orphanage in Kozani.”

 

Conori’s eyes narrowed, her anger easily visible, and Janye knew why. In the Amazon world, the Tribe worked together as a whole. An Orphan would not be sent to strangers. Even a male child was given to someone who would raise the child.

 

Janye continued. “I stayed there for two turns. One day, an older man came seeking a son to help him with a small oxen farm. He looked to be a kind man, and something told me to talk with him. He later decided to take me. For seven turns, I lived as his daughter. We grew close. Albus taught me to read, write, and to play this flute.” Janye turned the flute in her hand. “It is my only possession of value.”

 

Both women looked at the flute, then each other. Conori needed to know the rest. “How were you taken by Slave Traders?”  Janye closed her eyes, her expression showing this was a painful memory. “They came disguised as Merchants, wanting to buy Oxen.” Janye now gazed far away … face frozen. “As soon as they realized we were alone, they took what they wanted. I was their sport.” Janye’s eyes met Conori’s. “Albus was tied to a chair. He was beaten and tortured until death released him. I can still hear him, begging for my freedom. His last words were for me.”

 

Conori threw her head back, tears slowly going down her face. Eyes firmly closed, she fought the images now revealed to her. Feeling Janye’s soft touch wiping her tears, only then did she open her eyes. Janye had moved close. Now cradling her face with both hands, Janye kissed her.  Conori tried to fight her own desires and was unable. She returned the kiss, pulling Janye into her arms, one hand already weaving itself into her blonde hair. Breaking the kiss, but still holding her, Conori murmured, “No Janye, I am double your turns in age. You should have…”

 

Conori’s words were halted by Janye’s fingers on her lips. “My Queen, you are eternal to me, and the only one I desire.” No further words were spoken as both reclined on the sleeping furs … lost in each other.

 

From the hut’s balcony, Janye watched the Amazon camp begin to brighten with dawn. It still seemed like she had just arrived, but as Conori reminded her last night … they had been together for two turns.

 

She loved Conori so completely…life before her seemed colorless, with no substance or meaning. Except for dear Albus.

 

She’d dressed in her newest leather tunic. A gift from Doris. Hand tooled into the leather was the sign of an open hand. The sign of a Healer. She wore it proudly, remembering how Doris had cried and hugged her close. She was a real Amazon Healer now. Someone worthy of her Tribe.

 

Conori’s arms slipped around her from behind. “You leave me too soon. Even Diana is not awake.” Conori enjoyed holding her. Janye had blossomed into a beautiful woman, and Conori felt blessed to have her near. Janye hugged Conori’s arms even closer. “I was remembering being here two turns ago. How I first saw you smiling down at me. I think I loved you even then.”

 

She turned and Conori cupped her face with both hands. “My Songbird. I gave you little choice. Keeping you from all except Doris.” Both women laughed and Conori kissed her lightly, “I love you Janye.”

 

“And I love you Conori. With all that I am.”

Their eyes sparkled with tears as dawn continued to lighten the day.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Leya Irish Bard, is a new author making her debut with a recently published Ebook, “Amazon Tale” at: www.thereaderstretreat.com. This short story shared with us, “Amazon Tale – Janye’s Awakening,” is a modified slice from her novel. Her motivation for sharing it with our readers? “I wanted to show the Amazons in a different view…as a society. And I wanted to show a romance in that setting.” Leya admits being happily caught up with her characters. “One story grew into four. The novel is over 90,000 words, and a second one already started.” Leya encourages all authors to follow their dreams. “If I can get published – so can you!” she says.  Leya lives in California and is owned by four cats. “Three wonderful loving boys and one old calico female who terrorizes us all!”  The editors at Writing.com have also chosen her story as 2nd Choice in the Romance category.

 

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In Part 3 of Dr. Tony Fiore’s Series, “How to Deal With Difficult People,” he will tell you exactly what passive-aggression is, and how to deal and cope with a person or people in your life who are like this, whether they themselves know it or not…

 

“HOW TO DEAL WITH DIFFICULT PEOPLE: PART 3 – THE PASSIVE-AGGRESSIVE”

 

Written by Dr. Tony Fiore

Copyright  2005 by Dr. Tony Fiore – www.AngerCoach.com

 

Thirty-three year old Roberto had promised his wife Tina that he would be home after work in time for her to attend her weekly “women’s group” at her church. Having only one automobile, Tina was completely at the mercy of Roberto’s promise.

 

You guessed it!  Roberto did not show up until 8:45 PM- way too late for Tina to attend her meeting. Rather than being apologetic, however, Roberto explained to Tina (who was outraged at this point) that he “couldn’t help it” because “I had to help a friend out who’s car had broken down.” He lamented, “How could I let Michael down? He was best man at our wedding.”

 

Was Tina being unreasonable in her anger? After all, Roberto was helping out a mutual friend. Yet, looking deeper into this situation, turns out that Roberto really didn’t want Tina to attend those meetings because it was “putting ideas into her head.”

 

Yet, he couldn’t just forbid Tina from attending, so he handled the situation in an underhanded way-sabotaging her attendance in a way that would still make him look good.

 

After all, he could argue, what reasonable person would get mad at someone who was late because he was helping out a friend?

 

The Anatomy Of Passive Aggression

Passive-Aggression is a psychological mechanism for handling hostility or anger in an underhanded or devious way that is hard for others to prove. Sometimes the passive-aggressive is aware of what he or she is doing, and other times not.

 

Yet, the result is the same-things are sabotaged by the passive-aggressive and it somehow is never their fault. A really good passive aggressive is very slipper with excuses, justifications, or alternative reasons for why things go awry.

Passive-Aggression may not be expressed directly in behavior-but in words or humor. Sarcasm which communicates hostility is often a tool of the passive-aggressive person, as are jokes made at your expense.

 

Some common examples of passive-aggressive behavior:

 

* When conversing with someone who is angry at you, they leave out important information which gives you the wrong impression.

 

* Talking behind the back of a coworker in a harmful way-gossiping.

 

* Exaggerating the faults of your spouse (behind his or her back) to your parents while maintaining “sweetness” toward your spouse.

 

* Playing dumb or inadequate to frustrate someone or gain advantage..

 

* Upset with your wife’s weight, you “affectionately” call her “pork chop” in public in a way that appears playful on the surface.

 

Dealing with passive-aggressive behavior is extremely challenging because a really good passive aggressive is very slippery. Often, too, you may not be sure if you have been the victim of passive aggressive behavior- or not. You may be feeling angry and upset,but not sure why or if it is justified.

 

How do you tell? One way to identify it is to look for patterns in someone’s behavior – not just isolated incidents. For instance, if Roberto generally is dependable and is home on time for Tina to attend her meetings, the one “miss” may not be motivated by passive-aggression. However, if he often sabotages Tina’s attendance while denying he is doing so, a behavior pattern is evident. What should you do to deal with passive-aggression once you have identified it?

 

Three tips to cope with passive-aggressive behavior:

 

Tip #1 – Directly confront the behavior and ask if the person is angry at you. For instance, ask “You called me pork chop tonight. Do you have issues with my weight?”

 

Tip #2 – Be on guard and don’t trust what the person says or commits to. Develop a Plan B. For instance, Tina could have arranged for someone else to pick her up for the meeting in case Roberto didn’t make it home on time.

 

Tip #3 – Use assertive communication skills to let a person know how what they do affects you and makes you feel. Try something like “I heard you repeat something that I told you in confidence. That really hurt me; please don’t do it again because I would like to trust you.”

 

2005 © Dr. Tony Fiore. All rights reserved.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

 Dr. Tony Fiore is The Anger Coach. New anger resources are now available Anger Management for the 21st Century: The 8 Tools of Anger Control print and ebook, bonuses www.stopyouranger.com. Check our Anger in the News blog and comment at: http://www.angernews.com.

 

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Many of us sabotage our plans for success by worrying excessively about our credit score. The author, Pamela Stewart, shows you seven (7) ways to build a healthy relationship with money so that you stop beating yourself up and start realizing your dreams…

 

“DO YOU DEFINE YOURSELF BY YOUR CREDIT SCORE?”

 

Written by Pamela Stewart

Copyright © 2005 by Pamela Stewart – www.escapefromcubiclenation.com

 

The other day I was conducting a telephone seminar on how to take back the power in your career for a group of employees in a non-profit organization that was undergoing rapid change. We had just walked through an exercise about creating a vision of your ideal work, without the constraints of silly things like reality. I asked if there were any questions and got one from a very bright employee named Patrick.

 

“This is a great exercise for some people, but I can’t even begin to define a vision of my perfect work.”

 

I asked Patrick why it was so hard.

 

“I have lots of student loan debt and some credit card debt. Who could I possibly get interested to fund my dreams? I don’t want to ask my parents to lend me money since they have done enough already.”

 

What was NOT said on the phone was more powerful than what was said. Patrick is a smart, capable, caring and perceptive young man who is already doing great things with his life. But he had convinced himself that since he was in a tough financial situation, he didn’t have permission to even imagine what a perfect life would look like.

 

Since when did your credit score become the required pass to a better life?

 

The financial part of your life is one area where there is a public, accessible record of all your past behaviors and decisions, good and bad. Every move you make financially is carefully tracked and recorded. And as a society, we place a huge weight on this score, since to us it suggests a level of maturity, responsibility and, I would argue, moral superiority.

 

Let me tell you straight: your credit score is not a reflection of your worth as a human being.

 

So stop placing the emotional weight on what you did wrong, which often leads to more destructive behavior, and start loving yourself!

How do you build a positive relationship with money?

 

* Recognize that money is a powerful energy that has to be respected. If you feel like money is scarce, it will become that way. When you receive it, be grateful and do not close your eyes and spend it on things that are not healthy for you. Keep your wallet clean and your bills neatly ordered.

 

* Look straight in the eye of your financial situation. Add up all of your credit cards, home, auto or personal loan debt. Write the number down and look at it intently. Figure out you current monthly or annual salary and make a plan to slowly but steadily pay down your debt. Get copies of your credit report and note the specific things that contributed to a negative score. Track your expenses on a monthly basis and become familiar with your spending patterns.

* When your bills come, immediately open the envelope and look at the amount and date due. Throw away any filler paper that is included and keep your current bills in a basket right by the place where you pay bills. You will add to fear and denial if you let your bills sit unopened in a big pile of messy papers.

 

* Automate your banking. I found that many people with money problems have a hard time balancing their checkbooks. If you have online banking, you can see transactions on a daily basis, and can better manage your cash flow.

 

* Focus on prosperity and abundance, not dollars. What you want is abundance in your life in all areas; love, compassion, fun, energy, relationships and health. Money is just the means to an end; it is not the end itself.

 

* Pay attention to the words that you say about money. Prosperity is attracted to a spirit of humility and gratitude. Look at the difference in these words:

 

I don’t know how I am ever going to pay my bills

Versus

How could I make money to pay my bills?

 

I am so sick of paying out so much money every month

Versus

I am thankful that I have the money to pay bills that put a roof over my head, keep me warm, fed and clothed

 

I will never have enough money

versus

I am thankful for my health, my family, my home (or insert any other thing in your life you are grateful for)

 

* Give some money away. Now this probably seems like a crazy suggestion. If you are short on money, why in the world would you want to give any away? It doesn’t matter if you give $1 or $100. The important thing is to give it away and expect nothing in return. Relish in the feeling of giving and how good it feels to let money go to a good cause.

 

Being financially responsible is not about living up to anyone’s standard of perfection. It is about respecting and valuing yourself, protecting your interests and leaving many doors open for you to do whatever it is you want to do: travel, buy a home, provide for your children, or start a business. A good credit score is a great thing when you approach it from the right perspective.

 

© 2005 Pamela Stewart. All rights reserved.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Pamela Stewart, is a seasoned corporate consultant with a new mission in life:  help corporate warriors to become thriving entrepreneurs! To take a free assessment “Test Your Small Business Start-up IQ” and get other valuable tools, go to www.ganas.com/freestuff. Read Pamela’s blog at www.escapefromcubiclenation.com.

 

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Home business expert, Kristie T., gives tips on how to plan the perfect workspace; one that keeps you organized, inspires you, and boosts your productivity. 

 

“SETTING UP YOUR DREAM HOME OFFICE SPACE”

 

Written by Kristie Tamsevicius

Copyright © 2005 by Kristie Tamsevicius – www.webmomz.com

 

One of the great privileges of the direct selling profession is being able to work from home. But with the freedom of your career, also come the challenges. The sink is full of dishes, your son left his crayons on your desk, and the laundry is piled up in the corner. A well designed home office will help you transition from the role of domestic goddess to high power entrepreneurial executive. Just like Clark Kent changes in the phone booth to become Superman, as you enter your office space, you turn into Queen of your home business empire. Instantly your mind shifts from the laundry list of household chores, to strategies for earning that big check next month and enjoying a hard earned Hawaiian vacation.

 

But how can you plan the perfect workspace; one that keeps you organized, inspires you, and boosts your productivity? Here are some rules of thumb to follow when designing your home office space.

 

Plan a space that meets your needs.

 

*  Space: Imagine your dream space. You have the freedom to create the space of your dreams. Where is it? What items do you need to have in it? Some questions to ask yourself are: what equipment you’ll need, what things you’ll have to store, and how much privacy you’ll need. Do you need to stay close so you can keep an eye on the kids? Do you need a meeting space? Will you have customers or other consultants stopping by?

 

*  Location.  Choose a space in your home that best supports those needs. Whether it’s a spare bedroom, a corner of the living room, a large closet, an attic or a converted garage; find a room that has enough space for the equipment and furniture you need.

 

*  Storage.  While not every direct seller needs to keep inventory on hand, those that do know that having an organized space to store products is critical. Make sure the space you choose has ample room for shelving and storage. Think about the items you handle on a day-to-day basis in your business. Now make a list of the items. Do you need a bookshelf or wall holders for catalogs and brochures? With the proper space and containers to keep your office tidy you’ll have a clutter-free, organized work space.

*  Furniture.  Next it’s time to outfit your work space with a desk, bookcase, and filing cabinets. Today with the boom in home based careers, there is such a variety of office furniture to choose from. Whether it’s a simple desk, an office armoire, or a complete L-shaped unit, make sure you’ll have the desktop space you need to keep key items at your fingertips. Dare to splurge a little on getting yourself a comfortable and ergonomically supportive chair. It’s a back-saver and worthwhile investment.

 

*   Equipment.  Plan a spot to put your computer, phone, and fax. Buying an all-in-one printer/scanner/fax machine is a smart choice that saves you desktop space and money!

 

Put it together in a way that makes sense.

 

*  Placement.  Decide what goes where. Place key equipment in a way that flows with the way you work.

 

*  Organization.  One great way to stay organized is to create centers for the tasks you frequently perform.  For instance, you might want to put all your brochures, order forms, and catalogs together in one place. Other “centers” may include a mailing center, a faxing center, and a printing center. Boxes and bins are great for keeping smaller office supplies organized.

 

*  Ergonomics. Place your keyboard, lighting, and monitor at proper heights. By being good to your body, you can function at peak performance without tiring as quickly or getting injured from incorrect positioning.

 

Create an inspiring atmosphere you’ll love.

 

*  Personalize.  Now’s the chance you have been waiting for to create the office of your dreams. Make your office a space that truly inspires you. Little things make such a difference. Choose a paint color that brings you joy. Pamper yourself with treasured photos, candles, and artwork on the wall. Add a touch of romance and a dash of color with a potted plant or vase with flowers on your desk. Finally, having inspirational quotes, a dream map, and visual reminders of your goals can be powerful tools to keep you motivated and on the track to success.

 

*  Lean and tidy.  There’s nothing like starting the day with a clean desk. Try to get in the routine of either cleaning your desk at the end of the day or doing a 5 minute tidy first thing in the morning. By having a place for everything and everything in its place it’s easy to stay organized and be more efficient.

 

*  Lighting.  Don’t skimp on lighting. In addition to creating ambiance in the room, proper lighting keeps you from straining your eyes. As well as having enough overhead lights, you’ll also want task lighting. Today there’s a wonderful selection of stylish and functional lamps to choose from.

 

Start Your Dream Office Today.

What are you waiting for? Get a jumpstart on your home office now by taking the following actions in the next 48 hours.

 

*  Walk around your home and visualize your office. What space feels good and inspiring to you? Where can you see yourself spending a lot of time and loving it? Choose the perfect space and clear it out.

 

*  Flip through catalogs and magazines.  Clip pictures of furniture, décor, and items you’d like to include in your dream office. By getting crystal clear on the intricate details of your perfect workspace, it makes it easier to spot those items as you come across them.

 

*  Shop around and look for smart buys.  Scan the newspapers, store fliers, and online office store coupons for sales and special offers.

 

2005 © Kristie Tamsevicius. All rights reserved.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Speaker, author, and consultant, Kristie Tamsevicius is an entrepreneurial expert who has helped thousands of people to start and succeed in their online businesses. She is the founder of Webmomz.com, president of Branding on the Net, and author of several books: “I Love My Life: A Mom’s Guide to Working from Home” and “Build it Big 2: 101 Insider Secrets from Top Direct Sellers” (Dearborn Publishing – April 2006). Claim your Free Home Business Success course and expert Work at-Home tips at: http://www.webmomz.com.

 

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“WHAT IS THE QUALITY OF YOUR EXCUSES”?

 

Written by Margie Warrell

Copyright © 2005 by Margie Warrell – www.margiewarrell.com

 

What aspect of your life don’t you feel really great about? Is it to do with your job and the direction of your career, a particular relationship, your body or fitness level, how you manage your finances, where you live? Or could it be the lack of balance you feel between your work and family? Whatever it is I’d like you to think about something specific that you would really like to change or improve in any aspect of your life – big or small.

 

Now ask yourself what you could do over the course of the next 12 months that would make a real difference to how you feel about this area of your life. Aaaahh… but what’s that I hear you mumbling under your breath? “I don’t have time… it doesn’t seem worth it… this is the way it has always been… this is the way I have always been… what’s the point … I’m just too busy to focus on this right now….”

 

Then consider this for a moment – the quality of your life is determined by the quality of your excuses!

 

Now I’m not saying that you don’t have some great reasons for why things are as they are. However, whilst you are prepared to put up with parts of your life not being the way you’d love them to be – without any firm and consistent actions toward improving them – you are selling yourself way short and missing the boat on all you and your life could be.

 

As a Life Coach I hear a lot of excuses and see part of my role as an “Excuse Buster” … of sorts (I don’t wear all the gear the Ghostbusters did!). Often what lies at the core of our excuses and resistance to taking proactive actions is fear. Fear of what it takes or of not being good enough. If you experience a lot of self-doubt and fear about your ability to accomplish something that inspires you then consider the following:

 

Your fears are driven by a positive intention to protect you from pain. As humans, our fears have served the survival of our species – otherwise we’d have been eaten by lions long ago. However, these days our physical survival isn’t the focus of our fear as much as our emotional well being. Our fears want to spare us from pain and discomfort … the pain of rejection, the pain of failing, the pain of feeling foolish in front of our peers. The problem is, though, your fears want to protect you from pain AT ANY COST!  Even the cost of living a half-lived life where you “settle for” way less than you’d like, simply  because to grasp at more involves risk… risking failure, rejection, and all those things that make you squirm.

 

If we don’t own our own fears and self-doubts they will own us.  Instead of acknowledging them and how they may be trying to serve us, we pretend we don’t feel them. Instead we look beyond ourselves to our external circumstances and come up with plenty of excuses and reasons for why things aren’t as we’d like them to be, and for our inaction to make them otherwise. We then actively seek out evidence to support the validity of our excuses by avoiding, ignoring or discrediting anything that might contradict them. Ultimately we end up feeling resigned, convincing ourselves that it’s better to stay with the status quo, despite its many shortcomings, than to try to make things different. But what great accomplishments have ever been undertaken with a guarantee of success?

 

Your fears want to keep you in your comfort zone, because in there you aren’t at risk and you have what feels like perfect control. In your comfort zone life is predictable. It may not be particularly exciting, but at least it will be familiar. Perhaps there are things you’d like to do, yet you find yourself shying from taking on new challenges simply because you aren’t sure how to go about them. You get scared, you chicken out and you come up with some great excuses … a lack of opportunity, the economy, your kids, the government, your boss, your spouse, lack of education, your parents (aaah, that one’s always a favorite!).

 

The irony is that we are our own biggest roadblocks in life. Yes, the biggest obstacles you will ever encounter in living your life fully are your own internal obstacles, what you choose to think!  Yep, your fears and limiting beliefs stop you way before any external circumstances you may (or may not!) encounter.

 

Fear hates change, even change for the better, because all change means moving beyond the familiar and predictable into something new. Your fear of change can also explain some of the patterns of destructive behavior that keep you repeating the same experience again and again (e.g. staying in destructive relationships). You repeat the behavior because its familiar and that’s where you’re comfortable. Is there another way? Of course. But first you need to acknowledge why you have chosen to behave as you have in the past; you need to identify the ‘payoff’ you’ve been getting (and there’s always a payoff on some level!).

 

Courage is not absence of fear but action in spite of fear. If you want to live a life truly rich in all that fills your heart and expresses your own uniqueness, you must be prepared to take a step beyond the familiar and leave your old excuses at the door. Only when we extend ourselves beyond what we know we are good at, beyond what we are sure we’ll be successful at, can we grow into all that we can be.

 

You have all the courage you need inside you to transform your life into whatever it is that you want. You just have to tap into it. Sure, none of us feel like ‘rocking the boat’ in our own lives but, sometimes, it’s just what we are called to do if we are going to live our lives fully; if we aren’t to deprive ourselves and the world of all that we can be. Sometimes we need to swim against the current; step up to the high board and dive deep, and trust in our own ability more than we have before. In the big picture of your life, you ultimately CANNOT LOSE from stepping up to live a bigger life than the one you live now.

 

Don’t give your excuses the power to stop you from doing whatever it takes to transform your life into one you really love. Don’t let them keep you from looking back on this year, and one day, your life, and feeling absolutely fabulous about what you made of it. Begin today moving toward being the best you can possibly be. Why today? Well, why not? If you don’t, not only are you missing out on experiencing your true greatness but, so am I and so is everyone else. Settling for “just okay” is NOT okay with me. Is it for you?!

 

In the words of Samuel Johnston, nothing great would ever have been accomplished if all possible objections had first been overcome. You see, there will always be excuses, plenty of reasons “why not” to live a little bigger, take a bit more risk, but where will that get you? So I ask you…

If you had no fear of failing, what goal would you love to accomplish?

 

Excuse Busting Exercise

 

1.  Get very clear on your goal by writing down what it is you’d like to change/accomplish.

2.  Write down all the excuses you’ve used for not taking action on this before which may come up again.

3.  Write down what those excuses have cost in terms of how you feel about yourself and your life.

4.  Write down the payoff (there is always a payoff!) you’ve got from allowing those excuses to keep you in inaction (e.g. you’ve avoided risking failure, you haven’t had to take full responsibility for where you are, its been comfortable, familiar, etc.) and ask yourself if you’re ready to let go of that payoff.

5.  Challenge the logic and reasoning behind each of your excuses; seek evidence that does not support their validity.

6.  If one of your excuses is being “too busy” decide what you are going to cut back on, or do differently, to create the time you need to accomplish it (remember, sometimes we have to say “no” to the good to make room for the great!).

7.  Break down your goal into itty bitty steps and set some deadlines against the first few.

8.  Commit to taking at least one action every day, beginning today, toward this goal.

9.  Get support!  Share your goal with someone (or lots of people!) and ask them to hold you accountable until you’ve reached it.

 

2005 © Margie Warrell. All rights reserved.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Margie Warrell, is an Executive & Life Coach, Speaker and Writer who specializes in empowering women to find the courage to pursue the goals that inspire them – personally and professionally – with more success, fulfillment and balance…less the stress!  To subscribe to her Free Monthly Ezine or for more information, visit her at: http://www.margiewarrell.com.

 

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“ARE YOU A ‘YES-DOG’?

 

Written by Suzanne Falter-Barns

Copyright © 2005 by Suzanne Falter-Barns – www.howmuchjoy.com

 

There was once a time (and there still is, to a certain degree) when I would say ‘Yes’ to every opportunity, request, suggestion, good idea, and even mediocre idea that came my way. And let me tell you, it was exhausting!

 

It was like I had this automatic, knee-jerk reaction to accommodate any suggestion that came my way – as if it were my karmic duty. I call this auto-response being a ‘yes-dog.’

 

Perhaps you know the feeling.

When you’re a ‘yes-dog,’ your entire being is all about making other people happy; you knock yourself out doing it. No task is too small – you figure you’ve always got room in your psyche, your schedule or your soul to squeeze in one more thing that someone wants to fit in. God forbid you should say ‘no’ … for then that someone would be unhappy. Which would be unthinkable.

 

Like a lot of creative people, I’m naturally empathetic – so I could literally feel other people’s pain… an experience I simply wanted to avoid as much as possible. For many years, I thought it was up to me to please the rest of the world. I literally thought it was my job to be a ‘yes-dog.’

 

These days, I’m taking a much more circumspect view. I’ve come to the realization that I simply can’t live my soul purpose AND make the rest of the world happy all the time.

 

And I realize that being a ‘yes-dog’ doesn’t always make the rest of the world happy – even in my little corner. The more well known I get, and the wider my reach, the more I can see it. There is always someone, somewhere, who has a problem with what I’m doing. And therein lays the breakthrough.

 

I am no longer uncomfortable with other people’s pain. I mean, it’s not like I relish it; but I don’t run to avoid it. I’ve come to realize we all have a path, and a learning process we’re going through. This means my entire job is nothing more than to be authentic, listen to my gut, and act accordingly. Not only will I not make everyone happy … I can’t!

 

If someone is upset by this, it’s no longer a big problem.  Rather, it’s simply the way their path is rubbing up against my path; it’s part of life, growth, and karma. So I have nothing to fear.

 

My friend Joan Sotkin has a saying, “I don’t always have to be the one who’s uncomfortable here.”  Amen!  Since I’ve given up being a ‘yes-dog,’ and let go of the need to be ‘the one who’s always uncomfortable,’ great things have begun to stream my way. My reach, my income, my productivity and my impact in the world have gone up in quantum leaps.

 

Best of all, I’ve relaxed as I go about my business. ‘No’ is not scary anymore – it’s empowering. And ironically enough, the world has not turned on me in anger and resentment … it’s actually stepped right up to my door and truly embraced what I’m doing.

 

Are you a ‘yes-dog’? Take my handy quiz below to assess where you are. And may I suggest a step away from that easy little word, to one that can be equally empowering: “No.”

 

The Are You a ‘Yes-Dog’? Questionnaire

 

1.  Do you find it hard to say no to your children, even when they’re making unreasonable demands.

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

2.  Do you long to be able to tell your boss exactly what you think … but you just can’t?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

3.  Do you find it impossible to deny yourself ‘forbidden’ pleasures – i.e. Ben & Jerry’s ice cream when you’re dieting – even if you’ve made a decision not to indulge?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

4.  Do your friends tell you that you’re a pushover, and advise you to stand firm?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

5.  Do you get a queasy feeling in your gut when someone asks you to do something that’s just not a good fit for you … and then inevitably cave in despite your feelings?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

6.  Are you uncomfortable asking for more money or more responsibility around your work?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

7.  Are you always the person who volunteers even when you don’t want to?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

8.  Are there things you long to do in life, but you simply can’t find the time or the courage to get to them?

a) Always

b) Occasionally

c) Rarely

d) Never

 

Rate your answers:

For every a) give yourself 10 points. For every b) give yourself 7 points. For every c) give yourself 4 points. For every d) give yourself 1 point.

 

If your score is 60-80, you’re probably saying ‘Yes’ WAY more often than you want to. Consider getting some coaching on how to say ‘no’ from a good friend, life coach or partner.

If your score is 20-40, you’ve got most situations pretty well in hand. Try saying ‘No’ just a little more often and see what happens.

If your score is 0-20, you’re doing great! Your ability to monitor when to say ‘Yes’ and when to say ‘No’ is truly inspiring.

 

© 2005 Suzanne Falter-Barns LLC.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

For information on how to find the time, energy, and money to live your purpose in life, check out Suzanne Falter-Barns’ Free Ezine, “The Joy Letter.” Sign up at http://www.howmuchjoy.com/joyletter.html and receive her valuable report, “35 Guaranteed Time Savers.” Also get a daily blast of joyful tips from the “Blast o’ Joy” blog at: http://selfhelpsalon.typepad.com/blast_o_joy/.

 

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“THE BEST KEPT WEB SITE MARKETING SECRET”

 

Written by Charlie Cook

Copyright © 2006 by Charlie Cook – www.marketingforsuccess.com

 

If you have a web site that’s not pulling in prospects and sales, I have a marketing secret to share with you. Your sales and pr0fits will increase as soon as you apply it.  Whether you’re marketing on the web, in print or in person, you are guaranteed to improve your web site marketing and make more sales.

 

Here it is:  people buy from you when you give them what they want. Sounds obvious, but most people don’t apply this secret to their online and offline marketing.

 

Many people think that the quickest way to improve their web site marketing and increase sales is to convince or ‘sell’ more prospects. Trying to convince people to buy your products and services is hard, not much fun and rarely works. In fact, this approach repels the majority of people who may actually want the products and services you provide.

 

Your prospects are like you; they want and need to buy services and products, but hardly anyone wants to be ‘sold.’

When a prospect reads your brochure or visits your web site, they are thinking about their needs and desires. Once you focus your marketing on giving your prospects what they want, you’ll see a leap in responses and in sales.

 

Think about your products and services. Why do people want them? What’s the first and most important concern your prospects have? What are their secondary concerns? Can you help them solve each of these problems and get what they want?

 

Look at your ads, brochures, or web site. Ask yourself the same questions prospects ask themselves when they view your web site marketing materials;

 

-  What is in it for me?

-  Does the first sentence give me a reason to keep reading?

-  Does the photo make me believe this firm has what I want?

 

What is the most prominent element on the home page of your web site or the cover of your brochure? In most cases, it will be your company’s name. Does your company name describe your prospects’ biggest concern? Does it give them a reason to believe you have what they want?

 

Imagine you wanted to open a new bank account in your hometown. On Main Street, you see two banks with large signs in the windows.

 

Bank A’s sign says – AMERICA’S FINEST SINCE 1950

 

Bank B’s sign says – HIGH YIELD SAVINGS, IMMEDIATE ONLINE SUCCESS

 

Which one would you choose? Bank B grabs your attention by talking about the services and results that meet your needs. They’ve made the sale.

 

There are dozens of reasons people buy. You may hire a business coach to help you make more m0ney, a personal trainer to become a better golfer or tennis player. You may buy a new computer to increase your company’s productivity or a high definition TV to give yourself greater viewing enjoyment.  Identify the reasons people buy your products and services, and it’s like finding the key to sales.

 

What’s the biggest secret to attracting all the clients you want?

 

Stop trying to convince your prospects to buy and instead focus on giving them what they want. Once they see you as helping them, they’ll help you by buying your products and services.

2006 © In Mind Communications, LLC. All rights reserved.

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

The author, Charlie Cook, helps small business owners and web marketing professionals attract more clients and be more successful. Sign up to receive his Free Small Business Marketing Ideas Ebook, “7 Steps to Get More Clients and Grow Your Business” at: http://www.marketingforsuccess.com.

 

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